Thursday, April 22, 2010

Losing It

Sometimes I think we have a right to “lose it.”

The older I get, the more I realize that having it “all together” is not what it’s cracked up to be. It’s usually only an affront, a pose, an image for others. No one has it all together. And honestly – sometimes life just bites. It can be really unfair. Really cruel and cold.

So why shouldn’t we lose it a little? Isn’t that more honest than trying to be really composed when everything inside of us is screaming?

In the movie “Love’s Abiding Joy” a couple loses their baby girl. There is one poignant scene where the mother goes out by a tree when she can contain herself no longer and kicks, yells, and cries out to God. I cannot watch it without getting tears in my eyes. She falls to her knees and looks up yelling “Why? Why?” And even though my heart hurts at the thought of feeling that way, I love this scene. Because she is being honest. I mean let’s face it – we all know that’s how she’s feeling anyways – why disguise it?

God wants us to be honest with Him.

Who cares that others will think we are strange? Who cares if we look like a maniac? Don’t we all just need to “lose it” once in awhile? The person who “loses it” I think sometimes finds more focus and meaning than those of us who try to “hold it all together” all of the time. I think through the rawness of their emotions, they sometimes find purpose, meaning, and possibly healing can begin when needed.

I’ll be honest. Sometimes when I’m by myself I’ve had a good cryfest or yelled out to God. And it feels good. It feels so good. I think being honest with ourselves is important and the only stepping stone to moving forward at times.

I’m not ever condoning hurting anyone else in our emotional releases. I AM saying though that sometimes when we are in a safe spot, the most needed thing may be to do some yelling, screaming, and thrashing about between us and God. He can take it.


Lori @ Just Pure Lovely said...

Oh, I have been there! I have always loved your honesty, Dionna. Keep writing.

Barbie said...

I so know what you mean. I am afraid to say that I often "lose it" around my children and then have to apologize. I left you a blog award on my blog. I hope you will stop by and pick it up!

JillAileenJones said...

Found you on Barbie's blog-so glad I did. Love your blog today! I often lose it-felt like I have lost it more than my share these last two weeks. I am not someone who hides my feelings very well-even with God. I agree-I think we need to lose it-and He already knows how we are feeling but I think He wants us to come and tell Him when we are mad or angry or tired or sad or happy or whatever it might be.
Look forward to reading more of your blogs-I signed on to follow.
Have a great day-

Dionna said...

Lori - Thanks for your comment. I do try to be honest but sometimes that's a double-edged sword and people can use that against me. I only hope to encourage people from what I learn along the way.

Barbie - I am so touched by the award. I will try to get that up on my blog soon.

Jill - I am so glad you stopped by and discovered my blog! I don't hide my feelings well either. :) And I so agree with your comments although I do hope that you will have less to "lose it" about in the upcoming weeks and days.

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