Monday, April 5, 2010

Stop the World

I’m tired. There is a song by Matthew West called “Stop the World” and it talks about how he wants the world to stop – he wants to get off of this ride. He’s not talking about ending his life – just that he wants the noise and distractions of the world to stop so he can get time with God. Sometimes I feel the same way.

I get tired. I get tired of asking God for the same thing and knowing it’s His desire and will for me – yet I have not.

I get tired of the spiritual and physical battles that beat me and my family up in life.

I grow weary of having to fight so hard for what is right. Shouldn’t it be easier at times?

Yes, sometimes I want to get off of this ride and grab a different one. I want a different ride than the one I’m on.

Sigh.

But God has me on this particular road. He has His reasons for things. As Steven Curtis Chapman says, “God is God and I am not.” And sometimes I just have to settle on that as an answer. Because I can’t come up with a better one.

This world is tough. It’s cold. It can beat you up, spit you out, and then come back for more. It can laugh in your face or sneer behind your back. It can act like your friend and then hurt you – deeply.

And yet there’s always hope.

I get so desperate to hear from God. And maybe that’s His goal for me. To seek out time alone with Him. Quiet, uninterrupted, honest time with Him. Time that helps me find my footing, my voice. Time where only God can refuel me, refresh me, and fill me. Maybe He wants ALL of my attention and focus.

Oh to hear Him speak to me. Oh to hear His voice to show me, lead me, guide me. Hold me.

Stop the world, Lord. I want to get off. I need some time with You.


“My whole being follows hard after You and clings closely to You; Your right hand upholds me.” Psalm 63:8 AMP

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