Those words are hard to hear. I want to be the best “me” I can be for God. But lately, He’s been telling me to stop striving. Stop trying so hard. Stop analyzing my behavior all of the time.
Simply “be” the me He created me to be.
I don’t know if I even know how to do that. To simply “be.” To simply “be” without trying to “be” a better me. To simply “be” without analyzing where I need to improve and how much progress I’ve made. That’s a tall order. But there it is.
God doesn’t want me to do the striving. For if I do all of the striving, then I can try and claim all of the credit. No, God wants to work in me. He wants me to just simply “be.” Be the me He created that loves to write from her heart, love from her heart, and give from her heart. He wants me to simply “be” the girl who is sometimes naïve and innocent – other times very astute. God wants to work through my compassion and empathy for others. He wants to flourish in the gifts and talents He’s given me (even if I feel those are not many.)
To relax. To stop striving. Who would have thought those would be requests that would be so hard to fulfill? Yet, they are.
I imagine a day where I go about my business simply loving God. Praising Him. Learning more about Him through His word. Talking to Him as my Father and friend. Letting my requests be made known to Him. And leaving it at that. No “did I do this right” – “Did He really ask that of me or did I get it wrong?” No, none of the analysis.
Let God do the work. Let Him make the efforts. For my part, I need to simply listen and obey. There is no striving in that.