So often, I ask God for the ability to clearly see Him at work in my life. I want to clearly see Him personally communicating with me. I want to feel like He is a personal God – not just KNOW that He is a personal God.
I’ve seen how easy it is to “forget” His goodness in the land of blessings. I’ve felt how easy it is to feel distant from Him, when I am not intentionally seeking Him out.
I hate that void. That sense of quiet – with no word or indication from Him.
So I choose to rehearse in my mind and heart, how He has shown me He exists.
When I start to have doubts, I remind myself of how He has appeared to me in the form of leaving His fingerprints (and love for me) all over a situation. I tell Him ‘thank you’, for things He’s done for me, years ago! Because I don’t want to forget. I don’t want to forget His faithfulness, and I don’t want to forget how it feels to catch just a glimpse of who He is. I don’t want to forget how it feels to know He is near.
And trust me, HE IS NEAR.
I do forget, however, and I do doubt, unfortunately.
So, I begin again. I remind myself. I seek Him out. I get intentional. And there He is – where He’s been all along. WITH ME.
When I choose to look – I see Him.
When I choose to listen – I hear Him.
His touch, His fingerprints are all over my life. And I feel His love. I see His power. I know His glory. In these moments, I wish I could always stay. For nothing has ever moved or touched me deeper.