Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Trapped In Commitments

I’m the kind of person who loves to give. I love to give of myself. I also love to follow through. I pride myself on staying true to my word. So if I say I will do something, then I do it.

Recently, I’ve begun to wonder if that might not be a little bit of a problem in my life. You see, sometimes I feel swamped and overwhelmed. I have a lot on my plate. I don’t always feel that way but when holidays enter the picture or it’s time for sports to kick in – I see how little “wiggle” room I truly have in my life.

Some of my commitments I entered because I believed that God wanted me to. Whether it was simply to serve Him or it was because I thought it would be a fun way to give of my time – I say “okay.”

Some of my commitments asked little of me. They were only “once in awhile” type things.

Some of my commitments were forced. They were there because of my children’s activities and life in school.

Some of my commitments are truly loves of my life. Things that I feel like I was meant to be doing and that I enjoy.

And – some of my commitments started out small – but somehow requested more of me and my time as time went by.

So, I’m at the point where I’m asking God for some direction. There is not much room to take anything new on unless I give something up. That’s hard to do when you feel like you promised someone or gave your word to be involved in something. And personally, I just have a hard time quitting things. I have a hard time letting go.

But God is showing me that time goes by far too quickly. Having children only highlights the passing of time in your life. And I want my days to be purposeful and I want to use my time wisely for Him.

I’m asking God to show me what my priorities should be. What does HE want to be on my schedule? What truly matters and what is just “busy” work? What did HE call me to do? What few things can I truly do well instead of doing a lot of things sort-of well? What is it time to let go of so that I can enjoy life more?

As I pray and seek God’s guidance on what I devote my time to, may you do the same. It’s important to be people of our word, but sometimes we simply get trapped in commitments that have long since spent their time in our lives and need to be moved on to someone else’s.

If there’s ever a time to reevaluate how we spend our days – it’s now.

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