Tuesday, August 2, 2011

A Hunger For More

I Can’t. Seem. To. Get Satisfied.  I have this hunger inside of me that just won’t be filled.

It is so intense at times that it makes me want to cry. And I’m not kidding.

This hunger inside of me? It’s for “more.” More of God. More of His voice. More of serving Him in my life. More of seeing Him move. More of working for Him. More. More. More.

I’m praying about just what God wants me to do with this hunger. How He wants me to fill it.

I’m dropping certain things off my agenda to make room for anything new He might want to introduce into my life.

I’m reading His word. I’m praying. Fervently.

Then I’m trying to back off and be patient. See if maybe He wants to do some more work on me in the process.

Still. The hunger remains.

What does God want from me? Does He want me to write more? Does He want me to go on the field more? Where does He want me? How does He want me there? And when?

I’m hungry. I’m so hungry.

I’m wanting to be used. I’m wanting to be filled. I’m wanting.


Z said...

I am so on the same boat!!!

Just been desperately seeking God about my purpose.

This last weekend our church had a womens conference with Lisa Bevere and after listening to her speak for two days, that hunger in me increased like crazy.

So I've been praying. Seeking His word. And waiting . . . yet a part of me already knows what it is He wants me to do.

I just need to stop being so passive and so afraid to actually step out and do it.

Blessings on your journey of discovery :)

Dionna said...

Hey Zhanna! I pray that God will fulfill your appetite for more very, very soon. I think if a part of you already knows what it is He wants you to do...sometimes it's just a matter of getting prepared to fulfill that calling.

Do it afraid. I bet you'll be blessed. :)

Shanda said...

Hungry for God is a wonderful place to be. I pray he fills you with his word, his wisdom and his direction for your life. When we are willing and available, he uses us!

Dionna said...

Thank you, Shanda!