We don’t always get what we want in life. But maybe, we do get what we need…..
Sometimes, maybe we go through chaos for awhile in life, so
that we can be stirred from having complacency in the calm of it.
I can see how whirlwinds of challenges swirled around me at
certain times in life. I don’t think they happened because I was doing
necessarily anything wrong before they arrived, but that maybe my heart needed
to be stirred. Maybe I needed to understand and empathize with others more –
after going through certain struggles. Maybe I needed to develop and grow more
spiritually. Maybe I needed some
humbling.
Each situation has been different. Each one – so very personal.
God says that we will be sifted like wheat. We can’t expect
a loving Father to leave us alone in our pride, our lukewarm living, or our
ignorance. He has plans for each one of us. He sees who we can be.
So, sometimes, we need to be stirred up a little.
Or a lot.
I dread going through these seasons. I should count it a joy
that my Lord loves me that much. That He loves me so much that He can’t let me
go down a path that isn’t full of Him or full of all that He can show me. But, I’m human. And I dread the
personal hurts that come with these times. I hate the stretching done on my
character, and I feel so beat up at times, wondering if my own stamina can
last.
And yet – I like who I am more this year, than last year. I love
who I’m becoming more, as I grow. And that’s not because of anything I’ve done.
It’s because of what I’ve gone through in life. It’s because of the stirring in
my heart, soul, and circumstances. It’s
because of tilting my head up and lending an ear to what God might be trying to
say to me.
So – in the midst of the stirring – it’s never fun. But the
feeling of BEING stirred and knowing your are more aware, more beautiful, and
more complete because of it?
Priceless.